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 Everybody should be educated, stigmas and misconceptions exist for a reason. so they can know the warning signs and what to stay away from, as much as I did not want to inflict the suffering that I did, doesn't change the reality of my actions.

Red flags

It is good in a way because I can then be prevented from abusing those I do not want to abuse.

All the open holes, of people not understand me, me lamenting the fact, me trying to reach out and everything ending badly, all the pain anguish and hurt in between because of my self care methods,

There is finally a light and it shines right where i started.

I can finally reach an end to things

When every other opening is closed, like me not able to form or carry out relationships, alienation, self hate, self harm, dissatisfaction, hurt to others, regret remorse which does not matter worth a dime to the ones I want, 

I'm going to go back where I came from. 

Non existence.

All affairs are sorted. I don't owe anyone anything, there is no closure to be had, I can leave.

I can finally be at peace with myself. And same for the ones I've made to suffer, because like I mentioned earlier, I will do my best to tie up loose ends.

And so it ends, not with a flash, not with a bang, but with slow decay.